[Though there was far more to his training with his order than mediating, leading, and listening, Carlisle isn't looking to argue -- he's supposed to be reflecting upon himself and finding what it is he likes. A crease wears into his forehead as he focuses and tries one more time.]
I... seldom left the estate back home, save for when headed to the church. I spent many nights in my office there, drowning myself in my solitude. It felt... safe. I was safe from others, and I believed them safe from the misfortune my curse would bring.
[Safer than his family had been, at any rate. Perhaps distance had something to do with it, or perhaps Glacius is right in that his curse had no bearing upon what befell his father and uncles; either way, he decided he was better off safe than sorry.]
I have not had that luxury ever since I was taken from Bear Den, and while I am hesitant to admit it... I am better for it. I have friends. Potential students.
[He casts Glacius a sheepish look, his skin reddening.]
A lover. All things I felt were either beyond my grasp, or belonging to people more deserving.
[He squeezes Glacius' hand again, his eyes back on them.]
I suppose I am proud that I have managed to find I reason -- many reasons, all other than fear -- to keep living.
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Date: 2017-09-05 09:57 pm (UTC)I... seldom left the estate back home, save for when headed to the church. I spent many nights in my office there, drowning myself in my solitude. It felt... safe. I was safe from others, and I believed them safe from the misfortune my curse would bring.
[Safer than his family had been, at any rate. Perhaps distance had something to do with it, or perhaps Glacius is right in that his curse had no bearing upon what befell his father and uncles; either way, he decided he was better off safe than sorry.]
I have not had that luxury ever since I was taken from Bear Den, and while I am hesitant to admit it... I am better for it. I have friends. Potential students.
[He casts Glacius a sheepish look, his skin reddening.]
A lover. All things I felt were either beyond my grasp, or belonging to people more deserving.
[He squeezes Glacius' hand again, his eyes back on them.]
I suppose I am proud that I have managed to find I reason -- many reasons, all other than fear -- to keep living.