How could I not? I am supposed to protect you all, it is my calling.
[Fitting for his exhausted slump, Glacius' tone doesn't sound bitter here, only exhausted. Calrisle doesn't linger on that subject for long, however, instead swerving right back around to his previous inquiry. The alien sighs.] I... am sorry you had to witness that ugly grief. Perhaps I should have been able to pull myself together... but if I was going to, it was going to take time. I've never lost someone like that before... to have someone that I was so close to just vanish? With so much between us left unsaid, with no chance to figure out what became of them in their own worlds... it was all too much. It was like there was this huge crater that had been blown open in my life, vast and empty. I... I didn't know what to do. There was nothing I could do about it.
At least with you I... know what's coming. I know to prepare, and to fight it, even if I haven't figured out how. I know to cherish every day that I have with you... and yet, it would still be so much worse if I were to lose you. You mean so much to me, have impacted my life in ways I never foresaw, have filled my days with companionship and happiness... there would be a void there, certainly.
I do not relish thinking about this--would rather focus on hope, as I am sure you know by now. But since you are asking... should something happen, we have to hold to the strength that we have shown each other, Carlisle. We would take time to grieve, yes, but we cannot allow ourselves to be consumed by it as we have in the past. So let's make a promise to push on. After all, no matter what happens, the day may come when we will see each other again... be it in this world, or in another plane. [And now, finally done muddling his way through this verbally, Glacius extends one hand towards Carlisle, open and palm up.]
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Date: 2017-09-09 10:27 pm (UTC)[Fitting for his exhausted slump, Glacius' tone doesn't sound bitter here, only exhausted. Calrisle doesn't linger on that subject for long, however, instead swerving right back around to his previous inquiry. The alien sighs.] I... am sorry you had to witness that ugly grief. Perhaps I should have been able to pull myself together... but if I was going to, it was going to take time. I've never lost someone like that before... to have someone that I was so close to just vanish? With so much between us left unsaid, with no chance to figure out what became of them in their own worlds... it was all too much. It was like there was this huge crater that had been blown open in my life, vast and empty. I... I didn't know what to do. There was nothing I could do about it.
At least with you I... know what's coming. I know to prepare, and to fight it, even if I haven't figured out how. I know to cherish every day that I have with you... and yet, it would still be so much worse if I were to lose you. You mean so much to me, have impacted my life in ways I never foresaw, have filled my days with companionship and happiness... there would be a void there, certainly.
I do not relish thinking about this--would rather focus on hope, as I am sure you know by now. But since you are asking... should something happen, we have to hold to the strength that we have shown each other, Carlisle. We would take time to grieve, yes, but we cannot allow ourselves to be consumed by it as we have in the past. So let's make a promise to push on. After all, no matter what happens, the day may come when we will see each other again... be it in this world, or in another plane. [And now, finally done muddling his way through this verbally, Glacius extends one hand towards Carlisle, open and palm up.]