[He gives a small shrug at the question, and although his arms are still crossed he finally moves out of the corner a little, closer to the table again.]
I barely had to think about it at all; it was completely different than before.
[Probably because it's so ingrained--he doesn't even go swimming in public so as to avoid taking his shirt off--that it stood out as a completely alien idea. But he doesn't want to explain any of that, so he tries to figure out a way to answer with enough detail while avoiding the topic.]
With making the tea it didn't seem too unusual, so concentrating on not just doing it was really difficult. And the other time, it just... Warped into a sense of needing to act in self-defense.
[And so both of those had been very hard to recognize and then fight the instincts necessary to override them. But--]
This didn't seem normal and I guess wasn't something that could twist around in my head into being imperative to do, so it was easier.
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Date: 2017-11-23 08:26 pm (UTC)I barely had to think about it at all; it was completely different than before.
[Probably because it's so ingrained--he doesn't even go swimming in public so as to avoid taking his shirt off--that it stood out as a completely alien idea. But he doesn't want to explain any of that, so he tries to figure out a way to answer with enough detail while avoiding the topic.]
With making the tea it didn't seem too unusual, so concentrating on not just doing it was really difficult. And the other time, it just... Warped into a sense of needing to act in self-defense.
[And so both of those had been very hard to recognize and then fight the instincts necessary to override them. But--]
This didn't seem normal and I guess wasn't something that could twist around in my head into being imperative to do, so it was easier.