[Rey isn't so obtuse that she misses the irony of what she's saying. For the things she literally just told Carlisle, and has been repeating such phrases to others like a mantra, it's easier to overlook her own self as an exception. That she isn't as deserving of the right to live than (almost) anyone else.
[And that's what makes this so damned hard. To have her heart torn in every which way that it ripped her to pieces for weeks. The fear that this feeling will never go away sometimes makes her wonder if it's really worth it.]
Well, it doesn't matter now, does it? I'm alive and she's dead. She had nothing to go back to. [Her voice breaks, and there's a slam of her forehead hitting something hard.] Henry said there would be time for forgiveness, and we didn't even fucking have that. So sorry if I'm struggling with being able to take comfort in that shit.
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Date: 2018-02-05 08:24 am (UTC)[And that's what makes this so damned hard. To have her heart torn in every which way that it ripped her to pieces for weeks. The fear that this feeling will never go away sometimes makes her wonder if it's really worth it.]
Well, it doesn't matter now, does it? I'm alive and she's dead. She had nothing to go back to. [Her voice breaks, and there's a slam of her forehead hitting something hard.] Henry said there would be time for forgiveness, and we didn't even fucking have that. So sorry if I'm struggling with being able to take comfort in that shit.