[There's an instant fire in his chest as Rey brings up Glacius, a blaze white-hot that he almost lets out.
Almost. And yet, he holds his temper. She is lashing out in grief, he chides inwardly. He's done it loads of times himself, and has no doubt he will do it loads more times before he finally withers into nothing.]
I have not lost a partner, no. But I know well what it is like to lose someone and never know what it is they thought of you in their final moments. I know how it feels to- to not know if they still cared for you, or what they would do if they saw you now. Or to even know if they would love you in any regard. I-
[He chokes on something in his throat, his chest tight.]
I cannot fully understand your current pain, Miss Rey, but... I'm sorry. You were important to her, and you are important to me, and...
[He falls into silence. He couldn't make Kate see; how is he supposed to do anything for Rey, especially when she is grieving? When he knows he would be far weaker in her position? His guilt reinforces his envy, both robbing him of his voice and what fight he had in him, however briefly. He'll be dead soon anyway, leaving Glacius broken-hearted, having been damned to suffer such a loss with this relationship. That's a thought the alien would no doubt disagree with, but... Carlisle couldn't blame him if he did feel that way.]
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Date: 2018-02-05 10:56 am (UTC)Almost. And yet, he holds his temper. She is lashing out in grief, he chides inwardly. He's done it loads of times himself, and has no doubt he will do it loads more times before he finally withers into nothing.]
I have not lost a partner, no. But I know well what it is like to lose someone and never know what it is they thought of you in their final moments. I know how it feels to- to not know if they still cared for you, or what they would do if they saw you now. Or to even know if they would love you in any regard. I-
[He chokes on something in his throat, his chest tight.]
I cannot fully understand your current pain, Miss Rey, but... I'm sorry. You were important to her, and you are important to me, and...
[He falls into silence. He couldn't make Kate see; how is he supposed to do anything for Rey, especially when she is grieving? When he knows he would be far weaker in her position? His guilt reinforces his envy, both robbing him of his voice and what fight he had in him, however briefly. He'll be dead soon anyway, leaving Glacius broken-hearted, having been damned to suffer such a loss with this relationship. That's a thought the alien would no doubt disagree with, but... Carlisle couldn't blame him if he did feel that way.]