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Apr. 3rd, 2015 08:13 pm
tongueamok: (➣ this just got very heavy indeed)
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Hello, this is Carlisle.

I mean, it's not Carlisle as in I'm actually answering you right now, so if you're trying to reply to me at the second, you should probably save your breath because I'm not really here. This is some kind of a recording of my voice, but this is my communicator. I'm going to assume these devices are as common here as they are in other places — not my world, but others, ones more technologically advanced than where I come from— so if you'd like to leave me a message, then you may do so here, or er...

Right. Here is fine. So just leave yo—

[beep]

Date: 2018-08-14 09:52 pm (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 135.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
I don't know, Carlisle... Maybe that's why I'm asking you.

Atem keeps his tone steady, soft, his concern still very much there, but he keeps it also controlled as much as he can, he can get emotional, he knows it. He also knows how it is to be cornered in this way. It feels bad, every mistake one's ever done in their life keeps coming to the surface. He doesn't want Carlisle to run away now that he's there.

You're not alone in here. People would help. Even Hope... The thing is, you cannot help someone who doesn't ask for help.

From what Carlisle says, he doesn't want to end like this, but keeping silent about it will not change anything either, no matter how strongly he wishes for it. Atem literally found out through someone else, because someone else asked for him.

Date: 2018-08-24 08:19 pm (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 4.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
Why not?

Is it though? It's obvious, given how fast he just chose to focus on that.

Date: 2018-08-24 08:56 pm (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 176.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
Good Ra, why this again?」 

Do you understand that they are not gods? No one worships them here, no one even seem to like them. Don't be so full of yourself! It is just sad that you'd think that your goddess would rather have you suffer and die before asking for help, this is no temptation, they are not demons! Learn some humility, Carlisle! Your goddess doesn't want you dead! You wouldn't be able to spread her word or do her will if you die or become something unrecognizable! Can't you see it?!

It's evident his voice gets louder and louder as he speaks, how can someone be so blind!?

And if that's the case, your goddess is cruel and merciless and I curse her for how shortsighted she's made you be!

That's too much, he knows it — he doesn't care. Don't talk about religion to someone who was considered God among men.

Date: 2018-08-26 02:44 am (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 71.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
I know enough.

He could go on, oh by the Gods, he could. He's got a big mouth and big words. He could say that no god worthy of being called that would do that to their beloved children. That, on the other hand, Carlisle is disrespecting her from doing nothing. But that's not like him, not anymore, he wishes to think he's a little better than this — despite of how difficult is for him not to speak from his heart — he talked too much and said what he wanted to say, he is not this ruthless person, not anymore. He won't insult Carlisle's goddess, it would be as if he insulted his own.

He adopts a different demeanor, for as young as he looks, there is some seriousness in him that Carlisle might have never seen.

Date: 2018-08-26 03:12 am (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 114.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
That is certainly the strange part to focus on.

I think I made myself clear from the start, you're dying.

Carlisle is not going to be Carlisle when, or if that happens, he'll be gone. Carlisle is going to die.

Was it supposed to be a secret? Did you see the post that Kate made?

Pretty sure he's not the only one who knows.

Date: 2018-08-26 05:04 am (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 212.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
Woah, well that is so not his fault, really. Talk to you friends, Carlisle... He could have thought that someone at least would let him know and be aware of how his privacy had been breached.

This is very much like what happened with Michael, isn't it? Atem trying to fix things, just as he's used to. He would have thought he had learned by now.

Instead of answering immediately, the young man looks away, giving the very angry priest a moment to compose himself.


Is it a lie?

Date: 2018-08-27 12:23 am (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 135.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
It's so fortunate that by the time Carlisle met Atem, he no longer was wearing the Millennium Eye, but he doesn't have to be able to see his thoughts to see his very obvious pain and frustration — things that in all honesty are making the young man want to get out of there as soon as possible, it's obvious he's making things worse. For as confident as Atem might look, he's not, he's afraid Carlisle will shut him out, but he has to try. This is not about him, this is about Carlisle and something terrible that's happening to him.

But more ink comes out and Atem cannot keep just being there doing nothing. He stands and approaches back to him again, offering a clean rag.


I know you didn't. I'm not your enemy, Carlisle, please.

Date: 2018-08-27 01:38 am (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 177.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
I... wasn't gonna.

It is him who just gets away again, but not too far, opting to stand somehow near him anyway, just in case because he looks absolutely awful. What would Yugi do? He'd apologize and try to help him anyway, but Yugi is not there. He does not apologize for what he said, because he meant it, besides, going back to the topic would probably make it worse. He simply cannot warp his head around how anyone would put their faith on something that has given their back at them.

He should leave, but he cannot leave Carlisle like that, what if he just, dies right there? Who should he call? Rey, maybe? Could be.

Date: 2018-08-27 02:10 am (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 100.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
The time that Carlisle gets to compose himself, Atem cannot help but go to these places again, what good is he here for? He cannot really help anyone, not even himself. He keeps trying with terrible results.

Will he stop though?

Probably no. He'd feel even worse not to care at all.


Your soul is bleeding out.

That's basically it, wasn't it?

Date: 2018-08-27 02:40 pm (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 212.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
Yeah.

It's obvious who they are talking about, right?

No, not Kate.
Edited (¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ) Date: 2018-08-27 02:41 pm (UTC)

Date: 2018-08-27 04:23 pm (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 205.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
Who said it has no real importance anymore, does it?

Despite the distance Atem keeps between them, he cannot take his eyes away from his mentor, still unsure what to do; this is not like him, he's always thinking ahead, trying to predict people's moves, get a solution to everything his uncertainty can be seen just as the fear in his eyes, fear for Carlisle only. But given the priest's state, no one can expect him to be mindful of that at all, Atem of all people hopes how useless he truly is doesn't show.

What can he do? He doesn't dare asking, he knows the answer.


Should I call anyone?

It's clear he shouldn't be alone in a moment like this.

Date: 2018-08-27 06:42 pm (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 78.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
Atem handles him the rag.

... Who?

Okei.

Date: 2018-08-27 06:58 pm (UTC)
puzzlingly: (♚ 185.)
From: [personal profile] puzzlingly
Oh--

Atem keeps a tense silence from his part, a pale rose coloring his cheeks out of embarrassment. He barely glances towards the shrine before his attention is back to the priest.


What does she want from you?

He finally gathers the courage to ask.

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