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[tongueamok]

Hello, this is Carlisle. I mean, it's not Carlisle as in I'm actually answering you right now, so if you're trying to reply to me at the second, you should probably save your breath because I'm not really here. This is some kind of a recording of my voice, but this is my communicator. I'm going to assume these devices are as common here as they are in other places — not my world, but others, ones more technologically advanced than where I come from— so if you'd like to leave me a message, then you may do so here, or er... Right. Here is fine. So just leave yo— [beep]

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[circumitus]

Not that you intend to do anything about that, it would seem.

[tongueamok]

I am not a fighter.

[circumitus]

Am not suggesting that you be one. You'd probably just get yourself killed, anyway.

[Rey is so good at being comforting yes she is.]

But you should get a handle on your fears. Last thing anyone needs is to hurl themselves into danger because something got you spooked.

[tongueamok]

[Sigh. As blunt as ever, Rey.]

You make it sound so easy.

[circumitus]

Like hell it's easy. That doesn't mean you should let it dominate you -- not when that means you're just giving one of the assholes hosting us here what he wants.

[tongueamok]

I know that.

[He doesn't sound happy about it, though.]

[circumitus]

So what are you going to do about it? Besides stick your thumbs up your ass.

[tongueamok]

[Scoff.]

I am making amends to those I've wronged.

[circumitus]

And how exactly are you doing that?

[tongueamok]

I'm... not entirely sure yet.

[circumitus]

That isn't very productive.

[tongueamok]

I'm aware of that, as well.

[circumitus]

Then it looks like you're at an impasse, doesn't it?

[tongueamok]

Yes.

[S i g h.]

For what it's worth, I am truly sorry about what happened.

[circumitus]

Don't apologize. Am not the one you've wronged.

[She isn't accepting whatever feelings it is her other "self" that he knew in that world had, either.]

[tongueamok]

I know that, but—

[He hesitates, stifling a groan.]

It is you at the same time, or as close as I can get. I have to make amends to someone. My goddess would see it so.

[circumitus]

Well, then your goddess is wrong.

[Harsh, blunt, but honest. That's Rey.]

Will not play proxy for your guilt so you can feel better about what happened. Just make sure that the same thing doesn't happen here.

[tongueamok]

[There's a sound on his end that is definitely him fighting himself so he doesn't fight with Rey over his goddess and how she is always right and how dare Rey speak of the Clarity in such a manner.]

I will feel guilt either way, but I am working on it. It'd be easier if you would help me with this.

[circumitus]

[Sorry, Carlisle. Rey really doesn't care about his religion. Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs. But that isn't much the point here.

[Huff.]

And how do you suggest that? Have no idea how to help you.

[Not with this, anyway.]

[tongueamok]

I don't know. You don't know, and I don't know, and just make sure it doesn't happen again is so vague and potentially impossible that I can't ever be sure I've done it.

[circumitus]

So that's it? You're just going to accept things the way they are?

[Having control is a big deal to Rey. Someone with an ability so precarious not having a handle on it is very troublesome.]

[tongueamok]

The alternative is using them until I gain a mastery over them.

[Or just letting himself be killed. That'd probably be the easiest route.]

[circumitus]

And we can all be thankful that you're not an evil mastermind who'd go mad with power and subjugate us all with mind control.

[tongueamok]

Correct.

[That... probably isn't what she was going for.]

[circumitus]

...Glad we've got that cleared up.